Tuesday, January 20, 2015

New Year, New Me

That's right, that's my slogan for this year, actually for the rest of my life. New year, new me. I'm tired of trying to cover up my body instead of being able to just throw something on and feel comfortable. I find myself leaning towards the flowy material, nothing to clingy and it's annoying. I see old pictures of myself and can't help but think damn I looked so good. I was so thin. Now don't get me wrong I'm not trying to get a model status body over here. I know I've had a kid, and that it's going to take time to get my body back. Hell I may never have the same body again but that can't stop me from making better choices when it comes to what I'm eating. If I'm feeding my kid organic and making her eat vegetables and fruits because I know they are good for her then I should be too. There's going to come a time where she will start to notice that Mommy and Daddy don't eat everything she eats and will probably start to wonder, what the hell?! I have to eat this and their over there eating god knows what. I've got to give it up. My excuse of wrangling these three kids is my exercise, it's not. They listen pretty well so I'm really not wrangling them. And I think I've reached my limits with losing weight via breastfeeding. She's only eating twice a day so really I don't thinking I'm burning quite as many calories as I was months ago.



This was me at the tail end of my pregnancy. I gained at least 40 pounds if not more with my Nella bean. Since then I've lost pretty much all of it, give or take a few pounds. But as you can see my stomach was stretched so I'm not in shape at all. My skin is flabby, I just want to get toned again.

Now don't get me wrong, I can rock this body if I need to. I do dress up from time to time but most of the times you can see me in my yoga pants and a hoodie. (Hey cut me some slack I work with kids all day, they could care less what I look like!) Even the shirts I wear that are as easy as a t-shirt sometimes I feel like could look better. I feel like I'm trying to hide.

 June- Nice empire waist to hide the pooch
 June- Flowy material, flowing away from the stomach
 July- Something I felt a little uncomfortable in but I wore it anyways, I'm most likely sucking in here
 July- My typical outfit, t-shirt  and yoga pants
 August- Probably shouldn't have worn this dress, very clingy & you can see my stomach but I was ok with that surprisingly
 Nov- A night out
 Nov- A doctors appointment for Nell
 Nov- Thanksgiving
Nov- I love this picture of my family, just some of my examples of my body lately and post-pregnancy.

It's definitely harder for me because my husband is probably one of the worlds pickiest eaters ever! He pretty much hates all vegetables except for corn  and potatoes (which is pretty much just a serving of carbohydrates). It's hard for me to cook meals or to find new meals because he doesn't like it and it can be because it has one thing in it (like tomatoes or beans or any vegetable). Everything he likes is high in carbs (think pasta, mac n cheese, pizza, mashed potatoes) or high in fats. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not starving over here. I cook what I like too and I eat it too. Usually a lot of it. I want to try to make small changes like maybe use brown rice instead of white rice but even that is hard. If I try to change something without telling him he will notice. It never fails. He likes what he likes and he knows when you change it, trust me I've tried. Another problem that I'm not quite sure how to get around is the fact that he is a grown man. I can't make him eat his vegetables. Yes I can tell him how good they are for him but I can't physically force him to eat them. My only hope is to keep trying, to keep cooking the meals. He doesn't really like to cook so maybe me cooking certain things and not cooking separately for him will force him into it, either that or he just won't eat. I know he's going to read this and be like, "Um what the hell?" Haha, but really health is important and it will effect our lives weather it's tomorrow or ten years from now. I want him around, not only for our kids but for when our kids are grown and it's just us. I don't want to have to be taking care of him once our kids are grown. I want to enjoy the rest of lives happy and healthy. Hey a girl can try right?! It'd just be nice to have that extra support of someone trying to achieve the same goal as you. Although he doesn't want to change his eating habits I do have some friends that are starting to make changes so I've got some support there.

As far as Nella goes I'm not worried about her at all. She's the reason I'm doing this. She's a really great eater and I tried to give her as much of variety as I can. Even when she was a baby if she didn't like something I kept giving it to her. I've read that it can take up to ten times of trying something before they like it. I really think that's true, she hated cauliflower at first and now eats it no problem, the same with peas and spinach. Scottie would look at me like I had three heads when I would make something for her but she was so good and really tried anything I offered her. Now granted I realize we all have our days. Some days you just don't want cauliflower or sweet potatoes or whatever. I get it, and I'm not going to force feed her. I give her what I may make for breakfast lunch or dinner for that day and that's it. If she doesn't want to eat it, if she would rather throw it on the ground that's fine but that's it. That's all she's getting. I'm not a personal chef and I refuse to make her multiple meals, I know she's not going to starve herself. I've seen her not really like breakfast too much so she just eats her yogurt and then at lunch she'll pretty much eat everything. I'm not too big on snacks either. I give her a snack after her afternoon nap but it's usually just crackers and raisins or cranberries. Something light, something easy. Something to hold her over until dinner. She pretty much only gets treats when we go to a birthday party or something like that. Scottie and I just talked about this the other night too. About how we don't want to use food as a reward, you know you don't eat then you don't get a snack. Stuff like that. If she doesn't want to eat dinner that's fine, she doesn't have to but we will be keeping track of not only how well she's eating but of her behavior too. If she's had a good week then we'll get a treat, well I guess that is using food as a reward, whoops. Or maybe she could have a snack but something healthy. I feel like when you're full you sleep better. I also really want to implement the no thank you bite. You know, you take a bite and if you don't like it then you say no thank you. I just want her to be able and willing to at least try things.

Now as far I go I know I can help myself as well. It's not just what I'm making or eating for dinner. My absolute worst habit is I eat when I'm bored. The babies are sleeping, I've got the TV on why not have some pretzels or a string cheese. Of course I have my Pintrest board full of all these great easy work outs, but do I use them, no I don't. I'm not necessarily a bad eater but I tend to over eat which isn't good either and of course I eat crap and drink soda which is also not good. I want to try to set a time at night where I stop eating (maybe 9) and drink more water at home. When I'm at Michelle's I drink water all day but then go home and cancel it out by drinking soda or kool-aid (horrible I know and of course our glasses our pretty giant so it's most likely more than one serving in there). I really want to try to be more open. I'm really not any better than Scottie when it comes to eating fruits and veggies. I just need to be more open when it comes to fruit, hopefully I can get Scottie to be a little more open too with anything! We've also started to actually sit at the table, we had been just eating in front of the TV (terrible!) I've always grown up sitting around the table for dinner and I loved it, Scottie did too. It gives you a chance to catch up and see how everyone's day was. I will strive to do that with Nella as well.

I think the key to success for me will be using MyFitnessPal. It's an app on my phone (pretty sure anyone can get it) but you have to enter in everything single thing you eat and it keeps track of your calories for you. I think using this app will help me hold myself accountable, really keep myself in check. Well at least that's what I'm hoping for anyways. I need to check myself, ask myself am I really hungry? Do I really need those pretzels or that cheese stick? I plan to make a few changes at home as well. I want to try to switch white rice over to brown rice (let's see if the hubby will go for that) and really just pay attention. I was looking up ground turkey vs ground beef and really it's all about paying attention. Ground turkey can be better for you but it has to be the breast of the turkey, sometimes the leaner beef (talking 90-10 ratio here) can be better. It's all about knowing what you're eating, paying attention and reading the labels. Another thing that will help me is getting off my ass. Putting music on while the babies are up instead of the TV so I'm moving too, not just sitting on my ass. I can't wait for the weather to start getting nicer, not only can I walk with the babies at Michelle's but we go on family walks almost every night again. Not only do Scottie and I get to catch up with each other but we are moving too! I really want to try everyday to get at least 20 mins of something in. Weather it be running in place or a light work out I need to do something and do it everyday. The kids are still napping twice a day for goodness sake so it's not like I don't have time! Not just Monday through Friday. Another one of my down falls, I do great during the week and the weekends I blow it. Now don't get me wrong I think everyone deserves a cheat day once in awhile but not every single weekend!

I guess I just want to be better. Not only for myself but for my bean. My girl and my future kids. I want to be able to run around with her and not get out of breathe in two minutes. And let's be honest I want to feel good. I want to look good, not only for me but for my husband. He deserves me at my best too.


It's all for this nugget!

Update: I've been doing this for probably two weeks now and I've got to say I'm pretty proud of myself. I'm been doing good at keeping track of what I'm eating and I try to get in at least 20 mins or more of exercise in. I've really tried to cut out the candy and sweets (I do still enjoy some light ice cream) and make better snacking choices. I've lost three pounds so far so I'm happy. Now we've just got to keep on going! 

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